.Thursday, October 1, 2009 ' 7:00 PM Y
i love you. ♥
dude.
I hate my life...
Mostly its just me sabotaging everything again <:
Okay, I made some new friends/acquaintances
and they're all weirdossss.. (except for you, Diana :D)
A: Is such a player >.> Basically asked every guy she knew out.
She also gives off a weird lesbo vibe o.o not cool
B: Plain weird... also not the most attractive
there are more weird ppl but I won't go into detail.
New friends/ friends I make are usually people that
I feel are not very attractive
because then they can't think badly of me
or they would be a fucking huge hypocrite.
also they're much less intimidating and easier to manipulate.
But you know, one gets sick of it sometimes.
Notice I used the word usually. Emphasize on usually.
I don't think anybody is ugly. ♥ I swear
There's this person I used to be like bffs with...
but I totally messed it up back in like 2nd grade
&& I so totally regret that. It's too late to go back
even though I made a weak attempt
whatever I give up):
...I don't fit into the leftover ppl from our
asian group because they're all way too quite.
And therefore, not very interesting.
But then I didn't hang out with the
other Lawson ppl there during Lawson...
so I don't really fit in there either.
and the guys are okay but they're a
bit too nerdy
for my taste.
danggg I just want to belong somewhere you knowwww
that's why I can relate to Sean :D
(hope you don't mind me using you as an example)
omg.. having a social dilemma hereeee
...considering that the people at MV
are all I have because my
'family' doesn't care about me.
~btw this is only temporary
and I fear I may have over exaggerated
a little(because I'm such a dramaqueen)
so no uncontrollable pity-ing and
condescending thoughts please
Be gentle(: